even those thoughts disparaged in one moment
               are gospel in another
 
 
 
if I could see my whole life in one sight of knowing

if I could tell you every year and day and hour, knowing

if I could say, it would take every year, day, and hour

if I could that’s how my life would be, with you, with you

       beloved, my life, with you, one more time again
 
 
and if I could, I’d let it all go that we might begin anew

as if we could, for the very first time

again
 
 
 
          played against the backdrop of orchestral music

          if only I find you for the very first time