look ma, no hands
a wild love for the world
that title right above is borrowed from another source. pardon please but it is just the right thing to say. and in ways as many as I have fingers here, how much far away from this title has my life described itself? wise man once said, want to know your purpose in life? just look to what your life has most energetically attracted or repelled from yourself. there’s the easy key to turn.
thus for me, my purpose is mostly evident by what it has
held away from the story of myself. oh no, that’s not me!
and yea, two titles because that’s what I want.
then there’s this
each of us had a beginning as we entered the universe and took our place within that space. thus spoke the astronomers.
old admonition. don’t discuss politics or religion with folks you want to keep as friends. well politics sure, don’t interest me much, so no fuss. but religion, maybe not the best of words. too many unfortunate hooks. but spirit, or even that other honorific – god, well that interests me as much as anything can. ain’t that what we want to know? even if we’ve been told to leave it alone, unanswerable. even if the person saying that has been ourselves.
I haven’t ever let that one go unattended away from me. that’s not what my bones want to do. they insist.
trust no one. no, trust everyone. yea, both of them.
so mother said to the child me, here, go to church, we’ll pass some time, see what you like, then keep or let go as you wish for yourself. kind of kindly progressive suppose you might say. but kids, yea, they know the truth of adults, what they really think and feel. as I did then.
other than the observation that everyone there was halfway to dead, all I took was the core notion, god is every thing and god is every where. simple enough. formulaic. I held that as a test of truth. you find some where some thing where god isn’t – then somethings afoul with how you’re holding all of that. that always stayed in my pocket.
so far, nothing hocus-pocus, secular enough in its way, isn’t it? there’s a lot you can sketch, right from there. rules applied. fairhandedly.
so, describe everything
is that a test? can my inscription ring an honest bell? well you kind of can and you kind of can’t. describe everything. not unless forever is being given you. you know, the list goes on and on and on and on.
but there is one. one and only one way to satisfy that task. given a singularity, if indeed that’s how it began (or maybe even is right now in this moment we’re speaking about). then that one single point, that’s the everything in one fell swoop.
although there’s a trick. everything can also be described simply as what is. yet allowing the rule of inclusiveness, you remember do you not? what is must also include what isn’t. else no god at all. fair to be amused.
nothing. previously addressed with some short rope if you’re curious. almost too much even for the secular. but no forgiveness for cheating here.
so in all our conscious glory we haven’t a language yet able to describe an essence so bare as nothing at all. again, amusing perspective.
yet simplicity takes it all in stride
then god whispered into the ear of matter, said, here, here’s what I’d like you to do. and matter replied, yes, nothing would please us more.
admittedly rather anthropomorphic. but fair game, isn’t it?
so came stars, blazing, hungry, and galaxies, all engaged in dance just as they were asked. then big rocky things, then water, then creatures with four legs, then creatures with two – us, to be specific. all because of what one whisper implied when set free to be as it would be.
so where’s this going? I don’t know.
a wild love for the world
so here’s my feet, my calves, dangling over the edge of a precipice. one week, two, months? seven months, is that possible? but in one variation or another, yea, this has been my life, this chapter anyway. hardly believable.
but, here I am. do I call this living proof.
I’ve thought a lot about that description, that definition, for quite some while. anticipating the next second, next minute, yea, fill in the blanks.
a serious student of Christian story, some Buddhism too. thought I understood life, existence, the universe pretty well. but that edge, yea, it intones with clarity, oh yea, you think you understand?
am I ready to let go with a smile on my lips. gratitude?
I understand I think I feel, how C. didn’t want to leave when leaving was close. every tree every bird every stone every face every sky every cloud every poem every book every song. it’s all so much to not want leaving.
yea, I know.
I worry some about transitions. but not about judgment except my own.
so here’s the garden, here a tree, some apples and one snake. now just who do you think that snake was? sort of obvious to see by now, isn’t it?
and demonstrating that god has a sense of humor, if nothing else.
living may not transition neatly. some fray around the edges. expectedly.
how shall we speak one to the other? do we call this home?
maybe you have a better ending than me. go ahead. you write.
are your words on these lips? whisper me.